The "let it out" thread.

you know i have the same thing truth be told. ever since well i guess i started school ive never really been liked or "there" with people my age. But get me with an adult or a younger person and i get along famously for the most part as you always get those few people who arent who you get along with. And ive always been the smart kid though i didnt use to have people come to me for help even because i was so anit-social, like to the extent you see me but i had a barriar that no one but a select few could get through. Which ill admit didnt bother me because i had thought screw them for good and bad reasons. Now of course im a bit more open in general and can do some conversations its just been a long bumpy road to get to this point and taken awhile as i still am very careful on who i pick as acanidate to be an aquantance (give or take a friend).

I am genuinely happy though that you will be here more often as its nice to meet new people and talk to them. Though i apologize on how you may have seen me in my earlier posts but thats one of my reasons for being here as im sure you have your own. Nonetheless glad to meet ya XD

To anyone facing any hardship, particularly self esteem issues: See yourself as the person you want to be.

I got the urge to kill every one around me

Mr. Tart wrote:It's not that easy. The person i want to be is a musician that donates 90% of the money he gets and visits poor children etc. It's not all that easy.

If you wanna be a musician that donates 90% of your money, go for it, definitely! But I'm talking about the kind of things like the emotional aspects of life, or where you wanna be with regards to mental health. If you wanna be a happy person, or someone who's no longer bothered by what others say, start seeing yourself as such and things start looking up.

Mr. Tart wrote:I know, but that ideal dream kinda belongs there.

Hey, if it's what you want then you should go for it! I think seeing yourself that way can help too, and you're already donating as much as you can to WWF.

what do you define as evil? i myself want to kill everyonre for different reason but evil is one based ones veiwpoint.

Doesn't the awesomeness of us helping each other in this thread, contradict that all people are evil?

Don't kill me please, Dark Souls 2 comes out soon....wait until after that k? jj

nsane32 wrote:let me rephrase my earlier statement I have the uncontrollable urge to destroy all evil around me or most humans

Art thou Minsc?

*sign* The week just started and already the rest of it looks depressing. I really need to vent so here goes. I'm not changing to cyan for this.

I hate my mother's parents....no I hate her entire family, every single person but her. Her sisters, her parents, my cousins and in time I'll hate my oldest cousins children as well. They're parasites my mom and I are stuck with since the divorce. It doesn't help that they all hated my mom since she could talk. They always cause some ******** to screw her and me by extent over. Her sisters are jealous ugly, rude people who hate my mom because she is the only one who looks beautiful at her age. Her parents don't like her for the same reason and because they blame her for coming first class to the U.S.A. from Colombia before it became what it is like now, and they treat her like a damn slave when I'm not around. The only stand her because of me. They love me, but I lie that I love them.

They are all attention whores. Always creating scenes in public and competing for it. If one of them is sick, one of them will fake a something serious. My grandfather is a damn pervert. I will never show a girl I like to him because he will try to look at her breast. He takes things and either throws them away or hides it. Me and my mom don't have dinner for the next three days because he purposely hide the pork chops which are now bad. The biggest sting was this: He throw out the letter requiring to renew the license and registration of my mom's car so today guess what? She got ticketed for driving a expired car which is a $200 U.S.D. fine! So now she has to pay that, plus the storage bill, figure out what we'll eat for this week, the phone bill and pay gas. We had a $300 deposit but now thanks to him we have practically nothing in the bank.

She is breaking from this. It has been three years and while the divorce stuff is mostly done, we still are stuck here. And my dad still has not an address change and the court is still going on about the foreclosed house. She told me if I was not here she would have killed herself. I am literally all she has left now. As strong as I am to take this and comfort her it hurts.

I'll be glad when the month is over and for the first time in two months get the full alimony check from my father. Bastard had been using part of it as payment for when I had my wisdom teeth pulled out.

Soris...

I'm so sorry dude. I have family issues too but even mentioning them would be an insult that stuff is downright cruel.

Also, you might actually have legal grounds to do something re: the letter thing. Tampering with mail is a federal offense.

Truly, my heart weeps for you and yours. And this on your birthday week to boot.