Hi there, im not new here but didnt find this page until now...
My name is Rosie, I got into dark souls when I saw my brother playing it and I asked "Oh whats that you are playing?" To which he responded "Oh you dont need to worry about games like this" ...
Naturally I bought dark souls the same day. I knew nothing about the game other than its advertised difficulty, so I played through the game not knowing it had online mode, dropping upgrade materials (cuz what the hell will they ever be used for) and leveled up only INT whilst spamming my little soul arrows and rolling to get me through the game. Upon cpmpletion I was thinking "wow that WAS hard!" and then discovered the online mode...
I logged onto the wiki to see what occult damage did and saw the instant chat there so I copied the like "what does occult do?" and pasted it 4 or 5 times because dammit I wasnt about to wait for this vital piece of information!! I was swiftly told to GTFO (And quite rightly so for spam) So I carried on my merry way and started pvping in the forest (Ganking)
Few weeks later I logged back onto the chat to see if anyone wanted to co op or anything, this time I wasnt anonymous, I logged on as the name "Rosie" and was swiftly told to GTFO again, but this time it was "tits or GTFO" lol. Well being stubborn as hell, I did NOT change back to anonymous, I stayed and had some cracking laughs with people along with some great pvp and trades etc.... Before I heard about this famous guy named ************** (silly forum censor)... I watched some of his videos and didnt think much to the general pvp ones as it just seemed alot of "Look how awesome I am" but I did appreciate the effort and his following...
So I borrowed my friends recording equipment and recording myself hosting the forest and taking on invaders, and found it super fun to watch it back and edit in music etc so I made a few like that and uploaded them to youtube... Then I saw DarkSoulsMindseye and his chameleon trolling and thought "oo that looks fun" so I gave it ago, and found a certain warmth in tricking people online with sneak attacks and basically anything that WASNT your typical [bow] [buff] [bow again] [-insert essay of rules for duel-] I even filmed myself chainstabbing (in those days) some poor noob at the parish 27 times before he was knocked off a ledge!
I basically wanted to film anything that seemed a laugh at the time, whether that be trolling, themed ganking or something unique like using undead rapport on NG7 black phantoms...
At the same time, I was desperate to become moderator in the wiki chat, (mostly so it meant I wouldnt have to take crap from a certain few people lol) but also because I had developed a real passion for the game and community since it welcomed me, and i wanted to be able to keep that positive attitude in the place where I joined you all.
And then it all happened at once, I was made moderator, along with making some great friends in chat, and my youtube took off and gained a large following fairly quickly. It was like, too good to be true and I couldnt wait to contribute something new each day.
But like everything... haters gonna hate... And unfortunately I didnt have the right attitude to the internet - Where you ignore the haters and focus on the followers...
Started with the odd troll comment on youtube, the odd xbl message... And finished up whole threads on gamefaqs, 4chan and reddit discussing how im cancer to the game, someone making an actual video about me on youtube and someone else imitating my youtube through a similar name, and writing nasty comments to other people to make it look like me.
Well it only made me more competitive, I HAD to make a video that said "*** you" to them, and made more gank stuff, I HAD to be better than anyone at stats and figures so I posted regular test info here on various things, and I HAD to be better than anyone at pvp, I got so obsessed with beating everyone who even set foot in the chat, and getting the top spot of the arena boards, that it just wasnt fun anymore. The game became a job, a job where my boss was breathing down my shoulder to get more done, and my colleagues hated me, so I left that job...
And I am done with dark souls / uploading / youtube etc. Although I still have alot of love for this wiki site and its members, everyone has been an absolute diamond :Baal02: And I have finally learned to focus on the positive
So I will be lurking around this site and maybe the chat every now and again, but I just want to say a MASSIVE thanks...
To all the forum users who have given me feedback and welcomed me...
To all the chat users Ive had a laugh with over the past few months...
To SuicideFrog for being the best damned team mate ever in team arena... (Still unbeaten)
To the other moderators at the chat
- Wavering for keeping me sane!
- Force for being my evil partner in crime!
- SeriousMuch for laughing at the very possibility of me ever being mod there, and then repping the UK together!
To Fex for believing in me and trusting me with her chat...
And (Im gonna embarrass you now) Emergence for being the best friend I could wish for online...
I am truly in your debt and will never forget any of it =)
(Sorry for the soft talk essay - you uh... CASULS)