Help - I died before picking up the loot.

Hello everyone, this is my first post on the forum.

I just started my new STR build wanting to get the butcher knife.
So yesterday I was going to Blightown from the New Londo side.
Unfortunetly I got toxicated, without any herbs to cure it.

So I rushed to the Bonefire in Blightown, forgetting I was human.
Mildred invaded and a lot of bugs came with me to the tunel.
So I killed all the bugs and finished mildred in the round room where the dragon scale was, but I run out off estus flasks, and died of toxic before I found humanity in my backpack. I didn't manage to pick up the Knife, AFAIR I didn't even get souls for killing her.

So back in firelink I turned human again (if I remember correctly) and runned back down, but there was only my bloodstain. No buther knife to be seen. I runned around the swamp but mildred didn't invaded.

Since I didn't pick it up, is there any way to find it? Like in some treasure in depths or maybe a new body to be looted will spawn somewhere?

If I can't get it, how rare is the Large Club drop from the Ogre guys?

LC is not that rare, there's another different but similar club just beyond where milldred was. As for her weapon, nope it's the only way to get it, you can try again in NG+, to be honest the butcher knife never really impressed me.

I want it for the looks, not stats

I know about the Great Club.

Unfortunetly my xbx is offline for quite some time.
I hope I'll get the Club from Ogres or Axe from Taurus in Demon Ruins.

my char can use only:
weapons with A scalling in STR and no DEX req
helmets
boots
grass shield on his back